Ages ago, I found this poem waiting in a doctor’s office from the Chicago-based publication The Poetry Foundation. I (not so) swiftly took the magazine and slipped it into my bag, I had to have that poem in my possession, it felt slightly more OK that it was a dated issue. This poem is a total gem:
My Flaming Hamster Wheel of Panic About Publicly Discussing Poetry in This Respected Forum
by Neko Case
I can’t choose which kind of poetry I like best. Sonnets? Prose? I don’t know the terminology. I just blurt out some fragmented gibberish into the vast, woodsy country of poetry. It freezes in midair. Here come some examples now . . .
Shakespeare’s Titus Andronicus haunts me. Aaron’s death speech is veiled, venomous gospel music. I read it over and over even though I’ve already memorized it like a teenage girl in love. W.H. Auden scares me under the couch (even when he’s being funny). I hold my flashlight on “The Witnesses,” with its haunting “humpbacked surgeons/And the scissors man,” until my arm shakes, my trusty dictionary in my other hand. Dorothy Parker makes me manic! I can’t even make it through the first three lines of “The Godmother” without bursting into tears. Lynda Barry and Sherman Alexie save my life constantly. They battle identity crisis with a sense of humor and a language that speaks so hard to me because they came from my home, in my own time, and they talk to me in our special parlance. They tell me I’m not crazy because they remember it too. It really is the old Washington State that created my personal brain-picture ABC’s. (D is for “Douglas fir.”) The same Washington State I can never go back to. Barry and Alexie volunteer to go in my place. Their memories make friends with mine. I can’t live without them.
What do these poets have in common? They don’t write sycophantic, roman-numeral-volumed postcards to God. They don’t get all “love-ity-love-love” either. I get the sense they imagine their audience and want to comfort them. They are so good at it they even have the ability to comfort us with scariness. Sadness too. I think that is a powerful magic. They don’t just write poetry either; they are playwrights and painters and singers and novelists.
How can we help them out? I guess we keep on needing them, even if it’s kind of a secret. If the poets handed out anonymous comment cards for us shy poetry lovers to fill out so they could get a better idea of what we needed, I would direct them to the Osbourne Brothers’ bluegrass classic, “Rocky Top.” They say in two lines what poets and writers “Anna Karenina” themselves to death to convey, about a girl who’s “wild as a mink, but sweet as soda pop/I still dream about that.” If those lines were written about me I could lie down and die. It is perfection. Uncool Perfection.